God Loves Me!

God loves me! He loves you! Oh, my friends, isn't it wonderful?
More than that, he knows who I am. He knows my struggles. He realizes my weaknesses. And he loves me anyway. He loves you anyway. It doesn't matter what we've done. He loves us anyway.
Look to God in all things, and He will bless you. I know He will. He blesses me every day.
Keep the faith! I promise it will be worth it.

Counting My Blessings

My friends, life is so good. :D
It's good because God gave me the opportunity to make it good, and I took that opportunity. He gives that same opportunity to you every day. Will you take it?

So anyway, because I'm so happy, and so grateful to God, I am going to list my blessings. Or... Some of them. Haha. :D
I am alive.
Christ atoned for my sins.
I have the choice to be happy.
I have a family.
I have friends.
I have a blog.
I have work.
I have freedom.
I have a home.
I have food and drink.
I have the opportunity to wrestle.
I have the opportunity to become educated.
I have a car.
I have clothing.
I have the restored gospel of Jesus Christ.
I live in the most free country in the world.
I am capable of feeling love.
I have the opportunity to change the world.
Someone smiled at me today.
I am healthy.
I am happy.
I am capable of greatness.
The Earth is beautiful.
My life is hard. (That really is a blessing.)
People are good.
I have the opportunity to serve.
I have the opportunity to uplift.
I have the opportunity to do God's work.

So anyway. That's a pretty vague list. But it's my list for now. Haha. :D

An Opportunity to Change the World

So guys, I've got some stories to tell.
This last week and a half, I have had so many opportunities to change the world. And I've done it.
Like... Seriously. It's happening. I am changing the world.
Goodness, Dallin. What are you getting yourself into? Haha. :D
It's great though. I feel accomplished. I made a positive change.
So this opportunity started the moment these smiling Canadians pulled into my driveway and offered me a ride to Veyo, Ut. with them to Elevation. People that I had never actually met in person before. They had already kidnapped my cousin and brought her along.
Like what even. My life is awesome.
So I hop in the car with this band of grinning strangers and one cousin and head out on a road trip.
Because I can.
'Murica, right? ;)
So we're driving down the road, jamming out to Clarity by Zedd, and laughing all the way.
#CanadiansDeserveCreditForBeingAwesome.TheEnd.
#PunctuationInHashtags
#'Murica
Guys, I just used hashtags in a blog post. xD I feel so free, and so happy right now. :D I've never done that before. :D
So like, we get to Veyo, and we begin the adventure Friday night by going and seeing all our friends who were just leaving the first session of Elevation. Laughing all the way.
#MorePropsToTheCanadians
And like, it was great. I got to see all of my friends that were at the first session. Give them hugs. Tell them how much I love them. Because you know, I get to see them like... Twice a year if I'm lucky. So one must make it totally clear how important one's friends are to them during the short time one has. :D
Enter opportunity #1 to change the world.
I have a very dear friend who has a hard time leaving other friends. A really hard time. It basically breaks her. And I have no clue if what I did helped her or not, but I basically gave her a really long hug and told her how much she is loved. And then another really big hug. And another. Because she seemed like she needed them. And I wanted to help ease her pain as much as I could.
Then it was time to say goodbye. So I did. Even though it hurt. So maybe I helped her. Whatever the case, she helped me. She helps me feel emotion. I have a hard time with that sometimes. Long story for another post. So maybe she inadvertently changed the world.
And so I said goodbye to most of my other friends. That was the great thing. I got to use the word most. :D With my remaining friends I got to go hiking in Zions. :D :D :D <-- so much fun. :D We hiked Angels Landing, and then camped out. Told stories about our Pre-K Primes. (You had to be there to understand that one.) (#insidejokesinblogposts #ohyeah) Laughed until we cried, you know. Had a great time.
Then all my friends left.
Except those Canadians.
Silly people. They should have known better. ;) They didn't realize that they would have to put up with all of me for a whole weekend. ;)
Then on Saturday some other friends and I got to go to my favorite mentor's house in St. George and help him put up climbing walls in his garage. :D :D :D :D :D
So much happiness. :D
Then to another friend's house for a movie and a place to stay the night. And for watching the stars. We did that too. With a wedding going on in the same back yard at the same time. We were that cool. :D
Then the next day back to Zions, this time only me and a Canadian. A really cool one. :D So we took a hike up to the Observation Point, cut across the switchbacks, sucked on a flower, took some pictures, caught a lizard, met a man from Africa, and some Germans, you know. The usual. Because that's totally a normal day for me. xD
Went back to the hotel. Lost $20 at a convenience store. Went on a run with my cousin. Found a pillow on the side of the road. And a barbie shoe. #swag
^^^I'm not even exactly sure where that paragraph fits into the story. Somewhere. Haha. :D
So Monday comes. Mr. Canada and I get ready to go to Elevation. Mamma Canada decides to go to the temple. So she does. And Mr. Canada and I got to roam the St. George temple grounds for 2 and a half hours. Awesome. :D We got to go listen to a bunch of French people who were on tour talk as they viewed the temple grounds. French sounds cool. We took pictures. We were just generally awesome.
Then the time for Elevation came. :D
So the Canadians, my cousin, and I pack into the incredibly small Canadian car, (Like seriously, those Canadians are magic when it comes to packing stuff in a trunk.) and head to Elevation.
Fast forward all the greetings and introductions, (I loved them, but this post is already long. I don't need to put more in. Haha. :D ) I ended up in Pod 5 with Mr. Canada and the Oompaloompas. That was our name. The Oompaloompas. :D And we were led by our fearless mentor Willy. With Charlie assisting. And Jayson Bourne. Just so you know. (Not Jason Bourne. Jayson Bourne. Ours is cooler.)
Then started opportunity #2 to change the world.
So guys, you need to know something about Elevation. There are 4 rankings. E1 for the first timers, E2 for the seconds, E3 for the thirds, and E Ninja for anyone who has been to Elevation 4+ times. The E3s and the E Ninjas are expected to take leadership in the pods beside the mentors. Usually each pod will have a several E1s, a few E2s, a few E3s, and a couple E Ninjas. So there is ample experience in the leadership. Well, in my pod there wasn't. The highest we hit was E2 with the students. Our trail guide Charlie was only an E2 herself. Bourne was an E Ninja, but he was a roaming trail guide stuck kind of to our pod. Willy himself, our fearless leader, was only an E3. While everyone did a fantastic job, (Seriously, it was great) our pod was lacking experienced leadership. Well, who steps up when there is a need? I do. Not because no one else could do it, but because that's just who I am. So I took a leadership position in the pod and rolled with it.
Guys, being a leader is incredibly hard. I am not always an outwardly upbeat person. Much of the time I'm not. I prefer usually to take a leadership position from behind. I prefer to guide subtly and in quiet ways rather than be at the front. Because that's not who I am. It's exhausting to me. Because I can't always be around people. I've come to the conclusion that I am an introvert that is really good at extroversion. Part of that being leadership.
So I was doing a really good job for the first day and a half. I smiled, and encouraged, and led, and built up my pod. But half way into day two I was telling another student in my pod about my experience at state this year.
I didn't realize until that conversation how much some of the events that occurred at state hurt me until I spoke of them to this wonderful young lady in my pod. They cut deep. And I buried some of those feelings to dull the pain. But I didn't realize that I had done that. And so all of the pain from state was coming out again. Almost healed wounds were reopening. I was reliving some of that pain. And it's hard to lead in a sufficient manner when in pain. Not that I was leading the pod single handed, but at the same time I almost was. Because in this part of Elevation, we didn't have any mentors or trail guides with us. They were off running the challenge activities. So our pod almost seemed directionless.
Then came walls.
Honestly, I was not ready for walls. I thought I would be. But I wasn't.
Walls is an activity where you share with your pod something about yourself that you have hidden, or feelings that you have buried. Something to help take down the walls inside of you. Then you look into the eyes of the person across from you at the table. And you see their soul. Because the eyes are the windows to the soul. And when you look hard, you can see a person's whole being in their eyes. And it makes you feel vulnerable. Someone else can see your soul.
Walls hurts. Really bad. So already hurting going into it, and then sharing with my whole pod something else about myself that was incredibly painful to think about, I broke. Not that I cried. Because I don't cry often, but I just couldn't be happy for a long time after walls. It is a blessing that it was free time directly after walls so that I could go think for a while and sort my pain out. I really needed that.
I did resume my leadership role, but it wasn't quite the same after walls. I needed more time to think alone. And I didn't have it.
Still though, I encouraged. I uplifted. I led.
And I smiled. I laughed. I was happy. Because it is very possible to be happy while in pain. It's just hard.
So the week went on. There were many times throughout the week I had a specific opportunity to change someone else's life, and maybe in doing so change the world. Things like reassuring somebody that they could compete in the Williamsburger (A race between the pods) and that they would be okay, giving a pep talk to a student who was sure that she would not be able to finish a climb, comforting those who were having a rough time, cheering other people up, etc. I'm not going to name all the times, but those were a few. More than anyone though, I believe I grew. And I'm going to change the world. Growing will only help me do so. Thus in effect beginning the process of changing the world.
Elevation ended. I said my goodbyes. Gave last words of love and encouragement, received more than I feel like I gave, and got back in the car with those Canadians.
Gah. I love those Canadians.
Drove to a resort in Park City and stayed there over night with some other Canadians.
Seriously, they were everywhere. ;)
Had fascinating conversations, went swimming, had an excellent dinner, gave and received massages until 1:00 AM. Felt peaceful.
Then I came home.
Said goodbye to those lovely Canadians.
And my cousin. Who is apparently now my twin sister. Which is great. I am proud of that. :D
Oh my goodness guys. I wish I could say more. There is so much to say. But this post is super long. And it's 1 in the morning. That's a problem too. Basically, here is what I was trying to get to.
#1 Life can be great. You just have to make it that way. Never be complacent. Always want something more. And then go get it. Desire is nothing without action.
#2 Look around. There are always opportunities to serve, lead, uplift, and edify. But to see you have to open your eyes. That's one of the reasons Elevation is so great. No electronics with the exception of a camera. Period. You have no choice but to look up. To open your eyes. To greet your neighbor. To see opportunities to make the world better. Learn to serve with vigor and joy. That is where true happiness lies.
#3 Every action you make will change the world. Me writing this will change the world. You reading this will change the world. You walking down the street will change the world. The difference is, did you smile at the man you just passed? Did you know that he lost his entire family in a car accident last week? Or that he has cancer? Do you know how lonely he is? Do you understand how much a smile will affect his life? What about that person who is so mean to everyone around them? Do you smile at them anyway? Do you realize that they hurt inside, and they just need a friend? How about your family? Do you treat them right?
Think about it.

As I have said before. I am going to change the world.
Will you join me?

Do Not Waste Christ's Gift

I believe that the rising generation is the generation that will see the end of all that we know. 

Starting with the end of our freedom, continuing with the end of our country, and eventually with the end of the world. 

I've said it a hundred times, but I'm going to say it again. It's coming. Society is reaching a breaking point.

When society breaks, it's going to need leadership. Good, honest, righteous, leadership. 

God is going to rely on you to lead.

And this isn't just America. It isn't just the United States. No... When the United States breaks, the whole world will follow suit. And the world will fall into disarray. 

Do not think of this as something far away. It's coming soon. Very, very soon.

We do not have time to waste. Our time, our lives, our possessions... they don't belong to us in the least.

Anything that you think is yours is not. Because like it or not you haven't done anything in the history of ever without God's help. 

Almost 2000 years ago, Christ saved your body from death and your spirit from sin.

You and I, we owe everything to Him. 

All your time and energy is borrowed from Him. Use it wisely. 

If it weren't for Him, humanity as we know it would have ended with Noah. Noah would not have been able to repent from his sins, and thus would have been drowned with the rest of the world. 

Game over for humanity.

But Christ did it. He atoned for all sins. He gave you everything.

Don't waste his gift to you. 

Pain is not Sorrow

My entire youth to this point has been a win. 

I have always been on top, or very near to it in everything I do.

I have always looked at the losers or the people beneath me on the podium and thought, 

"That's so sad... Look at them. They've put everything into this. And they didn't win it. How depressing..."

When I lost my first state wrestling title, I could see clearly that God was teaching me what it feels like to lose. 

I learned that lesson.

So why would God have me lose another one? Why would he take the work of my entire life, my prayers, my blood, my sweat, my tears, my dreams... Why would he not let me win? Sure the other guy worked hard, but there is no way he worked harder than me. 

Why am I the one to lose again?

After all, two state finals matches is a lot to lose. Most people learn after one. 

But I did learn. 

So why me?

This was a question that crossed my mind quite a bit. And I hadn't given it much thought, because I don't like to blame my losses on God. But it was there.

I think that I needed to lose this year to learn a deeper principle than what it feels like to lose. I think I needed to learn that losing is not a sad thing. It may be hard. I may have wanted to go spend the rest of my life in a hole away from anybody. But I wasn't sad. I was never sad. I only hurt. And I've learned that there is a difference between the two. 

As much as losing the state title twice hurt, and still hurts, I wouldn't change it. 

I have received such a depth of character from those losses. The first one especially. 

They have only made my life better.

I am so thankful for them.

So remember. 

When life gets hard, when nothing seems to be going right, make sure to distinguish between pain and sorrow. Because if you're only hurting, but you put sorrow on yourself to add to the pain, your life is only going to be more miserable. 

No matter the pain, do not give in to the darkness. 

Hold fast to joy. 

Hold fast to light. 

Hold fast to God.

“There’s no way to rule innocent men. The only power government has is the power to crack down on criminals. Well, when there aren’t enough criminals, one makes them. One declares so many things to be a crime that it becomes impossible for men to live without breaking laws.” ~Ayn Rand

Watch carefully, my friends. It's coming. Stay awake and you'll see it.

If you ask your elders you'll hear that they've already seen it.

Don't let it happen again.

Faith

Countless times in the scriptures the Lord says to have faith.

I was thinking about that today. And struggling with it a bit. Because I ask the Lord for help a lot. So, so very much. Maybe 100 times a day. On a slow day. And when I ask, believe me, I ask in faith.

I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ.

With every fiber of my being I believe in him.

Thus I have faith.

But I feel like even though I ask with so much faith, I feel like receive so little. Especially with school. I struggle with school so much. I wish I could describe it to you. It's not that it's especially hard. I just get especially frustrated with the monotony of it. 

I think I figured it out today though.

When God asks a person to have faith, I think much of the time we misunderstand. Even the great prophets God told to have faith. And they had more than most of us ever will.

I think that sometimes God wants us to have faith in ourselves. I know it's something I lack in certain areas. I think He's saying, "Hey, I know you trust me. But I'm not going to do everything for you. I'll help you, but you need to believe in yourself. You need to do for yourself."

God is the great developer of beings. He has created and molded the greatest leaders the world has ever seen. Leaders not necessarily because of quickness of thought or smoothness of speech. Leaders of men because they were first leaders of themselves. The very best leader.

So basically... I need to believe in myself, if I'm understanding myself correctly. 

Great.

That's even harder than believing in God.

Lucid Dreaming

For a while now I've been trying to learn how to lucid dream.
Lucid dreaming is a state of being in which one is dreaming, and one knows that they are dreaming. Thus one can control the dream because they are conscious in it as it goes on in their head.
Lucid dreams are used for many things. People talk to their subconscious sometimes to try and figure out life. Other people use it to overcome fears, such as heights. See, a person doesn't die in real life when they die in a dream. So one can jump out of a plane a thousand times without a parachute, and be perfectly fine. The interesting thing is that the mind builds the pathways in the brain from practice of real life things in lucid dreaming. Thus overcoming fear in a lucid dream is a viable option because your brain does the same thing it would in real life. So the reason I've wanted to learn lucid dreaming is to practice wrestling, because as long as I understand the basic motions of my moves my brain can fine tune them in my head while I'm sleeping.
Pretty cool, huh? :D
Last night I finally got it.
I dreamed that I was outback of my house in the night. It was dark, but I was waiting for my cousins to show up. I was preparing, really. One of them, Josh, was going to come hunting for me. So I was hiding. I don't remember if it was just a game or if I was really, physically scared, but whatever the case, I was taking it pretty seriously. At this point the dream was just moving. I was not conscious to it yet. I had a sleeping bag, and was a couple of backyards over from my own figuring that he wouldn't look too hard in my neighbor's back yard. So I got down in my sleeping bag and was watching very carefully because I had seen their van pull up, so I knew he was searching. I turned around to look behind me, and Gollum from Lord of the Rings was RIGHT BEHIND ME. Gee. That was scary. So he proceeded to tackle me and generally just make me feel pain. Then something clicked. I realized that I was dreaming, because Gollum is not a figure in the real world. So I looked up at him and shouted something like, "Stop! This is my dream. I don't want you here. Go away." He looked really disappointed, and went and sulked in a corner. Now, I must not have been fully lucid, because thinking back on it now I realize that he went and sulked in the corner, which was actually next to a door, which was the door of a train car with scenery speeding by outside. So somehow I ended up in a train car from my neighbor's back yard.
Do you know what I love about dreams? I seem to totally roll with whatever comes in them. Like, it's not a big deal for me to all of a sudden be in a train car, I just accept that fact and move on. It's so cool. xD
Anyway, there was a nice old lady in the train car, (which was also a piece of a house at this point) and a couple of guys that looked like they had come straight home from World War II who were sitting near Gollum. I talked with the old lady for a moment, but I don't remember what was said. Then the dream started to slip. But I didn't want it to end, I wanted to go practice my wrestling, so I focused on being on a wrestling mat. But it was too late. The dream was over.
BUT IT WAS SO COOL. :D
Seriously, that made me so happy. :D
So I'm going to keep practicing. Soon I'll be able to get them more frequently and hold them for longer. :)
Productivity in my sleep. I must be dreaming. ;)

Of God and Time

I wonder if God created time for man, so that man would have a structure to the world and a way to measure the experiences past. Maybe so that life would make some sort of sense to man without memory of our past experiences.

Going even deeper, I wonder if time is the cause of mortality.

Think about that for a minute.
I think it's very plausible.
It it seems unlikely that God even exists within or is bound by time at all. Thus immortality. And if God exists in a state of being in which time is not a factor, we have an explanation as to how he answers the millions or billions of prayers sent to him in every moment. It explains how he knows the future. He's independent of time, and thus controls it.

So, to take this deeper.

This means that we as people cannot physically travel in time. It is impossible, because we live in mortal and thus time-bound bodies.
But our spirits are immortal.
So maybe it is possible to time travel as a spirit. It would require removal of the spirit from the body, which in turn requires death or other means of removing one's spirit from one's body, and thus is not advisable. But maybe possible.

So anyways. Think about that for a while. Let me know what you think in the comments section. :)
Have a wonderful day. :D

Finding a Purpose

I believe that I have found the reason that I do not enjoy my education.

But I need to take the story back a few years to explain.

So let us start at the beginning.

I really enjoyed my education as a young child. I hated school. But I loved the learning. And that made school worth it. It was exciting to learn how to put my thoughts into words and my words into characters on a page. It boggled my mind that night my Dad sat me down and taught me how to stack my numbers when I subtracted rather than putting them to the side of each other. <-- I legitimately still remember that day. Learning was enthusing to me. And back then my purpose for learning was learning just for the sake of learning. I was happy with that reason, and didn't need another.

But then I started getting older. About the time I turned 12, I started forming this dream.

It was simple at first. A little house on a hill. A happy family.

Then I started to realize that there are practical sides and pieces of life that have to be figured out in order to live. Things like food, water, clothing, and ways to obtain these commodities in a sustainable manner. So I looked into them. And thus my dream started to fill with basic things like solar panels and livestock. But more than that was needed. Livestock need food. Money is needed to buy solar panels. More importantly, money is needed to buy land. So a plan to make money ensued. 

But I decided that I didn't want to be dependent on a piece of paper to prosper. So I set out to find ways to do all of this sustainably, and I found permaculture. I learned that I could plant food forests that would be almost completely self-sustainable. Swales would help keep the water that comes to my land stay on my land, and even give me an abundance of this uncommon resource. Managed correctly, livestock can take care of themselves and each other, as well as keep the food forest in good shape. 

And that was it right there. The ultimate in sustainability. My dream could then be a reality.

But my little house with my family and my farm isn't my whole dream.

When it comes right down to it, my dream is about joy.

I want to be the happiest person alive.

And my dream isn't complete until everyone else's is too.

Because the thing that brings me more joy than anything else is seeing my friends succeed and knowing that I was a part of that success.

But success on a massive scale of individuals requires freedom.

And I fear that we are losing freedom in America. I fear that it will be soon gone. 

So the question then is, "How do I fix my country?"

Well, I go into politics. Or I go into radio. Television. The media. Maybe be a religious leader. As has been said many times by Glenn Beck, the way to change a country is to change it's culture. So to turn the country around from heading to less freedom to heading to more freedom requires a cultural shift. 

Ouch. That's difficult.

I don't want to be a politician. I don't want to be Glenn Beck or Rush Limbaugh. I don't want to be a religious leader.

I want to be that nice old man who lives with his sweet old wife in that one little house on that hill a couple miles North of town. The one who's home you always leave with a smile on your face and a renewed passion for life in your heart.

I want to change the world one person at a time. Because I believe that is the best, and most effective way to change the world. I believe it is the longest lasting.

But I don't have time. Because there are 7 Billion people on Earth today.

I won't even live as many seconds in my entire lifetime as there are people alive today.

But, I have a dream. And I have a mission in life. That mission is to change the world for the better in preparation for the second coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. So whether my calling is to be the wise old man on the hill or the martyr in the street I will stand ready to serve my God. Because I love him.

I have changed in the 45 minutes that I have been writing this post. The original intent going into this post was to explain how I now see my dream as unattainable, and thus I see no purpose in my education. Because I don't have a reason for it. I don't have a vision of where it will take me. And thus I can have all the drive in the world, but without a knowledge of where I'm going I'll only be driving. But I've changed my mind.

I do have a purpose for my education. 

The purpose of my education is to change myself. To make myself more useful to my God. So that he can work through me to change the world. 

Because I am going to change the world. 

Remember?

I invite you to change the world with me. Starting today.

Today is Easter. We will celebrate the overcoming of death and sin by the Savior. It is a symbol of a new beginning. So start one.

Begin with yourself. Clear your conscience of any regret or doubt. Educate yourself. Become what He wants you to be.

Once you've come to honest terms with yourself and your God, you'll know what to do. I don't know what you should do. But you will. 

Then, together, we will change the world.

But it starts,

Today.

The Anti-PDA Campaign of the Future

Today I had an idea.
An idea that may change the future of college students and their awful affair with PDA.
This idea came while I was talking with a dear friend of mine.
Her name is Chip, you may know her, you may not. But whether or not you do, you should. Because she's awesome. (So is her blog, by the way.)
What if we started selling tee-shirts at college shunning "PDA Offenders"?
Wouldn't that be awesome? xD
Something like this. :D

And then we could like... Have several variations of this shirt and similar shirts, and sell them at a shirt stand.
But the crowing point of the whole thing would be to hire couples to awkwardly make out near the stand to influence potential buyers.
Isn't that brilliant? xD
We could even start a hashtag. Something like,
#PDAbeGone
You know.
Anyways. This is a silly post. But I'm not silly very often. So I thought I may as well be for once. ^_^
Have a wonderful day. :)